anxiety...

i know christmas is only like four days away, but i'm anxious for some reason. this year will be three years that my great grandmom died, so i guess that's adding to the stress. then there's seeing all the family. i love my family. its just some of my family members like extended family and what not, drives me crazy. i can only take so much of them. i went to my cousins house up in north jersey last night and there were 17 kids...i'm not even exaggerating...17 loud, screaming, abnoxious annoying children running around the house, with 14 adults crammed in this small house. you can probably guess that i lost it. i can handle kids. but 17 of them? i already live with 4 other kids.. the fact that there were 17 little children plus us 14 adults all crammed into that house last night makes me think how crazy my family is.

but anyyywayyy...

i had a soccer game today. we finally got close to doing well. we tied 8-8. thats a good one. all of our other games suckedddd. 2-18..1-18..0-16..something like that. and uh, yeah. we were the low goals... our team's name is the Wild Animals. huh?? we're not wild. and we sure arent animals. we're terrible. but i almost assisted a goal to my boyfriend (who is also on my team) but he couldnt put it in the net ) :

k well, its getting close to my bed time. i need to sleep so i'm all fueled up for christmas!!

Merry Christmas! (: <3